Friday, July 27, 2012

What to do? Where to go?

Sometimes I don't feel like doing anything. But there is a part of me that insists on doing SOMETHING. So here is how I attacked that today. I got home from work, let the cat outside for a bit (most important) while I read by an open window. Good start, right? Then I made myself sick on M&Ms and some disgusting websites. No, really, they were gross. Not the sexy kind of gross either, you perv. I think I was attempting to shock my system into some sort of consciousness. It worked for a moment until I realized that my stomach was actually queasy and that I should probably stop and find something that was more creative, soul strengthening and conscientiously stimulating. Enter The Minimalists. I started to read and find bits and parts that pertained to me and would help me put some of the thousands of thoughts banging about in my brain in some kind of order. There are still a few thousand thoughts running amok but here are some of the bits that I found worthy of consideration.

The following excerpts are not my own, they come from Joshua Fields Millburn and Ryan Nicodemus of The Minimalists. My thoughts will be italicized - and NOT green - just so we're clear on who's is who's...

The High Price of Pursuing My Dream

"I no longer have the Internet at home. Instead, I now find more productive things to do with my time, focusing on my health and my relationships and the more important things in life. When I need to use the Internet, I go to the library or a coffee shop and I use it deliberately, no longer wasting hours of my life “surfing the web.” Living my dream doesn’t allow time for such pillory."

I aim to do this. No internet at home. Maybe just a month, maybe permanently. Read more HERE.

Letting Go of Shitty Relationships

"Sit down with the person who’s draining the vitality from your life and explain to them what must change in order for your relationship to work. Explain that you need them to be more supportive, that you need them to participate in your growth, that they are important to you, but the relationship in its current state does not make you happy. Explain that you’re not attempting to change them as a person; you simply want to change how your relationship works."

"Starting anew, empty-handed and full-hearted, you can build fresher, stronger, more supportive relationships—important relationships that allow you to have fun and be happy and contribute beyond yourself. These are the meaningful relationships we all need.
It’s also important to do your part. You too must add value to the relationship. Not by buying gifts or commoditizing your love, but by showing up every day and rigorously exhibiting how much you care, demonstrating your love through consistent actions, continually going out of your way to help the other person grow."

I don't think I have many shitty relationships - if any - but I do know that I no longer approach people and life with the warm, open arms that I used to. I am not satisfied with this change. It tells me I am too burdened. I feel people are pulling away from me because I am no longer giving to the relationships I have. But I am going through some sort of shift in my life and it is a shift, a change that I feel needs to happen. But it is taking a lot of my own energy and I have very little left for anyone. I just hope and pray that I can find a way to give again. Read more HERE.

The Benefits of My Minimalist Lifestyle

" needs will change in time, and thus what I own will change; but I’ll continue to embrace minimalism as a way of living, because the benefits are astounding (viz., intentional living, personal freedom, deeper awareness, better health, improved relationships, individual growth, and meaningful contribution)."

"I remember the old days when I’d spend an entire weekend organizing junk, separating miscellaneous items into various organizing bins and big blue tubs, using a complex item-dispersal system to separate my junk; but now it’s easy to remain organized since I don’t own much to organize in the first place. Instead, I’ve discovered that it’s much easier to get rid of something than it is to clean or organize it."

"The biggest fringe benefit, however, is the calm I feel when I return home. No longer am I worried about the wall-to-wall disorder. No longer am I bothered by the organized chaos. No longer am I discontent with my surroundings. My simple living space is calm, relaxed, serene."

I have always wanted my home to be a place of respite, calm and comfort. I would also love it if things rarely got messy and only took about 30 minutes to clean! BONUS! Read more HERE.

5 Ways to Create Solitude -

"Our daily lives are filled with noise. Every day it’s getting harder to turn down the volume.

Often, the noise feels inescapable, un-turn-down-able, utterly overwhelming. The only way to avoid it seems to be while we’re sleeping. Or does it invade our dreams too?

Get rid of distractions. This sounds like common sense, but we’re so distracted by the noise that common sense doesn’t seem all that common these days. But you can try to turn off your cellphone for a while; jettison your television; kill the Internet for a month; get rid of a few clocks; check email and social networks only once a day; and find ways to remove subtle distractions from your life."

This is so very prevalent in my life right now. Everything, absolutely EVERYTHING is so loud all the time that I cannot still the choppy waters of my mind and it drives me closer to crazy every day. Just read THIS ENTIRE POST!

Sometimes I don't feel like doing anything. But this...

"You must make change a mustI knew that I wanted to change my life for the longest time. I knew I was unhappy, unsatisfied, and unfulfilled. I knew I didn’t have freedom. Not real freedom. The problem was that I knew these things intellectually but not emotionally. I didn’t have the feeling in my gut that things must change. I knew they should change, but the change wasn’t a must for me, and thus it didn’t happen." what I am dealing with right now. I am working on my "musts" rather than what I just knew in my gut. As well as figuring out what it is that I am here to do on this Earth during this life. I've done a lot of things and I have a lot more to do I'm just not sure if they were or will be the things I want to do. I am not sure if I am passionate about them. Passion is something that I desperately MUST find. I'm trying to remove the blockades that keep me from finding, exploring and living that passion. I MUST act and MUST have courage. I MUST not sit and wait for it anymore.

And now one last link- I know, this post has been a lot of words and not a lot of purty pictures like I normally do but I thank you for bearing with me. This post maybe mostly for myself anyway but you know what, I'm gonna practice the Guide to Not Giving a FUCK.

The following is from Julien Smith on and this is something I am concerned about for myself...

"Ok, I have a confession to make. I have spent almost my whole life- 31 years- caring too much about offending people, worrying if I'm cool enough for them, or asking myself if they are judging me. I can't take it any more. It's stupid, and it's not good for my well being. It has made me a punching bag- a flighty, nervous wuss. But worse than that, it has made me someone who doesn't take a stand for anything. It has made me someone who stood in the middle, far too often, and not where I cared to stand, for fear of alienating others. No more.

All good stuff. Things to not just think about but to DO. I need to stop thinking and DO.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

More Photos from SDCC 2012

All photos were taken by and belong to Branwyn Bigglestone.

Dinner with Man Of Action peeps... in the uni-sex bathroom.

This took 4 tries! But yes, Todd finally snapped.

Man Of Action's Steven Seagle and Image Comics' Branwyn Bigglestone

L to R: Jen deGuzman, I forget her name!, Jacob Semahn, me, Tyler Shainline, Joe Kelly

Biggletron looking regal!

The talented Messers. Chris Giarrusso and Gregg Schigiel

Savage Dragon creator and Image Comics co-owner Erik Larsen

Me, Fiona Meng's fan and Carlos Salazar

Steven Seagle and Jacob Semahn of Man Of Action

Seagle (MOA) and Drew Gill (Image Comics)

Jeremy Haun, artist of Top Cow ( I owe him thanks... or an apology)

Chew creators, Rob Guillory and John Layman

Not sure who all is in this photo or what is going on... but I like it.

Sarah deLaine and Brittany Matter of Image Comics

Todd Martinez and Fiona Meng... and some others. I wasn't there! I don't know!

Gabriel Bautista (in the flannel and the flesh!)

Gabe and Branwyn

Sleepy me and Chris G.

Chris G. and Todd M.

Drew, Jim Demonakos, me, Chris G.

A lot of people... And Monica Garcia!




MAN L... no wait, Chris G is in this one. HAHA! You know I love ya, Branwyn. :P

Keven Gardner, Jonathan Chan and an EPIC-SIZED PAINTING!

Sassy men!

Cutest darned heroes EVAH!

Posing heroes

Truck nuts in the uni-sex bathroom. We're down with it all!

Actually Danger Club is REALLY AWESOME
and these guys really are stoked about it.
I just thought they looked so out of character here I had to share.

Betcha can't guess where Mr. Chan is!

Branwyn splitting Daft Punk!

Real White Boy Rap

Possibly the BEST super hero ever.

Yep, this pup is ROCKIN' IT!

Aw, me and Shadowline's Jim Valentino!

Image Comic's Branwyn Bigglestone and Skybound's Sina Grace

Lookit all the fancy Image creators! Sina, Curtis, Tim, Ales, Michael,  Jim and ... Ed?

Talking with Chew creators John Layman and Rob Guillory

Who's paying attention to the panel?
I'm paying attention to the panel.
Just kidding, Jen was tweeting the s**t out of the panel!

Eric Stephenson (Image's publisher) Joe Casey... crap. I give up.
But the woman was fascinating to listen to!
I'll be paying attention to her book for sure.
She writes from anger!

Monday, July 16, 2012

Another SDCC Gone By...

This is really lazy of me but I cannot seem to find any energy today and I already wrote this all out once. Please go here to check out my time at the 2012 San Diego ComicCon...

It was really cool to talk to Sean Murphy.
Hoping he comes to the Light Side that is Image Comics soon! 

These were the only things I got signed.
Glad I did but still wish I could be more cool and suave about it.

Sleepy time.

Robert Kirkman and me.

The walking dead really did kind of freak me out.
They were very good a what they did.