Sunday, December 30, 2012

2013 Horseshit... I mean, Horoscope!

From a Yahoo site:


2013: gemini overview

Gemini
2012 brought you so many relationship lessons, your head may still be spinning as you move into the dark and transformative waters of 2013. Chances are, you have finally decided whether you are in or out (although the inner dialogue and debate is eternal). Now you are being called to go deeper into your experience of commitment and intimacy. Of course, you're known to favor the shallow end, Gemini, but you'll be surprised at how much you crave the depths this year. You are willing to put in the hard work and do whatever it takes to make your life more solid, stable and secure than ever before. Even if this seems to go against your ever changeable nature, you'll find great comfort in consistency over the next few years.
Saturn, the cosmic taskmaster, is taking up long-term residence in your zone of health and work until 2015. The more energy you put into your current projects and daily duties, the greater the reward. You're learning the value of patience, perseverence and hard work. Finding the proper balance between work and health is also a theme that comes into sharp focus. How well are you taking care of yourself? You may find yourself drawn to a more austere, sensible and -- yes -- healthy lifestyle now. Eating to live, instead of living to eat, becomes a viable theme. In order to keep up the energy to support the heaps of projects you've got brewing (as per usual), you'll need to make sure your health and vitality are top notch. Embracing a healthy lifestyle makes everything possible and keeps your life running like a well-oiled machine.
You'll be thrilled to hear that the winds of change are finally dying down as the last two plus years of crazy eclipse patterns in your sign are finished. The dust is finally getting ready to settle and you can begin a potent building phase in your life. Making time for your inner world, spirituality and self-inquiry becomes a necessity rather than a luxury now. Carve out time to sleep, dream, write, draw, journal or whatever it is that your soul needs to thrive during such a busy and productive time. You will need this in order to balance your heavy workload.

Ooooookaaaaay, interesting. What else?

2013: gemini love

Gemini
After enduring a rocky road over the past few years, where you changed your mind about love a thousand times and nearly gave up hope on relationships altogether, you're finally ready to enter a period stability and commitment. The eclipse patterns are no longer turning your relationship realm upside down. You have a better sense of what you want and what you will not put up with in your relationships, which puts you on solid ground. As much as you love a good game, when it comes to love you want nothing short of the real thing. You're exhausted from the back-and-forth, the push-and-pull, cat-and-mouse games. You've grown up considerably since 2012 and are ready for a meaningful and mature relationship.
Other great news to support this maturation process in love is that Saturn has left your romance department for good (well at least for 28 years). After creating considerable difficulty and challenge in your romantic sector since late 2009, you've learned the hard way not to get involved with the wrong people. Your sometimes naive trust in the goodness in others has been replaced with a sober and sharp mind that carefully weighs the pros and cons of getting involved before giving your heart. Saturn taught you how important rules and limits are, even in your romantic life. When you draw a sharp line, your partner will respect you. If they cannot accept your limits, they do not deserve you. This has become crystal clear for you now, Gemini. It's as if a huge rock is being lifted from your romantic life and you're finally clear about whether you want to commit or quit. Of course, this doesn't mean you'll be completely free from any doubts of flip-flopping while committed, this is just part and parcel of your dual nature, Gemini. The difference is that you're willing to roll up your sleeves and put in the hard work to make the relationship successful.

Hmmm...

2013: gemini career

Gemini
You're willing to put in the long hours and tireless effort required to take your career to the next level. You're also loads more focused and disciplined when it comes to daily tasks -- thanks to the cosmic taskmaster (Saturn) giving support to your work zone until 2015. You aren't about to throw in the towel just because things get difficult nor will you look for the nearest distraction as you may've been prone to do in the past. The new you will persist against all obstacles to make your dream a concrete and sustainable reality. Saturn in your work zone is showing you that anything worth having takes hard work, patience and consistent effort. You know the stakes are too high to take the easy way out and throw away all that you've built. Just remember: where there is love, there is no effort. This year's series of life-changing eclipse patterns will rock your work world as the north node hangs out in your work zone for all of 2013. Expect great speed to replace any previous stagnation with your current projects. In fact, you may find your work moving ahead at such a crazy pace that it's hard for your soul to keep up. Be sure to give yourself plenty of time off to catch your breath so your health doesn't suffer. All work and no play can make Gemini one unhappy camper.
Neptune continues to influence your career zone in 2013, bringing great glamour and prestige to your professional persona. You've been blessed to merge the needs of your soul with your career since 2012, and now you're learning to use the power of smoke and mirrors to your advantage in the most powerful way. Your offering to the world is incredibly healing. People are mesmerized with what you have to offer and you can use the power of your imagination to captivate your chosen audience and target market. All of this leads to greater exposure and possibility.

Uh huh... not sure how possible all of that even is but I'll keep my hopes up! I guess it IS time to really buckle down and see what I can get done creatively!

Of course I was born on the cusp so let's take a quick look at Cancer too...



2013: cancer love

Cancer
Your love life is about to get incredibly passionate in 2013, Cancer. You've been preparing for the kind of all-consuming, soul-stirring and dangerously delicious experience of romance for the past two years. At the same time, you're craving greater emotional security than ever. Are these needs mutually exclusive? Not necessarily, but they will require that you only give your heart away to someone you trust, even if the chemistry is off the charts. It's sometimes hard to determine if you're building something to last or burning through a flame that will die as quickly as it started. You've certainly had your fair share of both versions of love over the past few years (perhaps even in the same relationship).
You may be surprised in 2013 how a hot-and-heavy love affair suddenly moves into deep unchartered waters. You'll be asked to put in the work to make it last, but you know it's worth it. This is actually what you want more than anything, despite your fears of getting hurt. Give it a chance if your gut tells you it's the right person. This could be your chance to finally achive the level of intimacy that makes life infinitely magical on a daily basis, despite the inherent struggle.
This is a year to let go of all of the pain and baggage from the past so you can embrace the powerful potential of a fulfilling relationship in the present. This may involve some heavy digging and relinquishing of the old skeletons from the closet, but trust that it's worth the effort. You must free yourself from any residual grievances and resentments from lovers in your past or your heart will never truly be open to someone new (or to your present partner if you're already hitched). Don't let negative nostalgia sabotage your love life, Cancer. That's such an old story for you at this point.

Okay, THAT'S all well and good! How about that career?

2013: cancer career

Cancer
The revolution continues in your career sector. The explosive aspects between Pluto and Uranus that will continue this year allow you to break free of any residual limitations. You crave nothing less than total freedom and autonomy when it comes to running your professional life. You refuse to be told what to do or how to do it. With your innate business sense, you don't need some pesky boss to cramp your style. You made some serious inroads during 2012, and your instinct to break rules is stronger than ever. Follow your gut! It never steers you wrong, Cancer.
Saturn, the cosmic taskmaster, lends tremendous support to your stars this year. You have more staying power than you even realized, and all of the work you've done on your integrity in the past year gives you the backbone you need to stand up to even seemingly insurmountable challenges. You trust your instincts and are not afraid to take risks when it comes to pushing your career to the next level. Your determination to truly get yourself and your brand on the map will pay off in spades this year. You won't give up until you reach the top. The eclipses will increase the flow of social networking that began at the end of 2012. You'll be absolutely blown away by the slew of incredible people coming into your world to help you achieve your goals. Think outside of the box in terms of the groups you might normally affiliate with. There are more branches that you have not considered that could easily be mutually beneficial. Don't be afraid to reach out even if you're not sure. You'll be surprised how willing people are to support your cause this year. There will be no shortage of angels to help you along the way, that's for sure.



I'm not a big believer in horoscopes, but they can be entertaining and inspiring.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Leaving...

My heart hurts.
I'm not sure where the wound started
but it grows as life goes on.
None of this "time heals wounds" crap.
I feel like a disease that people try to move away from.
Yet I cannot move away from my own disease.
I am a fool.
But what else could I have possibly expected by giving my heart away
and then making the choices I made?
Bits of soul
bitter as a rough bottle of wine
are cast unwanted
and painfully down my cheeks.
It's hard to not feel like no one fucking cares.

Seriously, all I want right now is a horse or two...
on a tiny bit of land of my own...
in a place not overly populated.
With a few chickens,
some bees
and a ton
of
fucking
books.

Hello, universe...
this is me.

Monday, December 17, 2012

A Watercolor!

It's in progress but I'm mostly happy with it so far. I'm going slowly so I don't mess anything up TOO much. :)

Rough pencils

In-progress watercoloring

I wanted her to have an unusual eye color. The blue tips to her hair... well... those are just cool. :) Her lips are too harsh and I need a black water color so I can do grey. All in good time...

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Bee Class

So the bee class I took today was super awesome! I realized that there are a few simple things I want from life: bees (and thereby honey), chickens (and thereby fresh eggs) and to bake cupcakes. Yes, of course there is other stuff but that is a good start.


Wednesday, December 5, 2012

It Is The Winter of 2012

It's almost like a Charlie Brown Christmas up in here! Look! I've even got my own version of Snoopy. She inspected the box but didn't help hang the tree. Couldn't find my ornaments so I just put origami cranes all over it. Now what? Oh yeah, Christmas cards.






Sunday, December 2, 2012

A Dreary Sunday

At least I got some volunteering done today. IN THE RAIN! With Miss Sherry-Mae.

Life is in a really weird spot as of late. So many things in progress, halted, up in the air, in chaos... I must draw... and quote Shakespeare... :P

"O, I have bought the mansion of a love,
But not possess'd it, and, though I am sold,
Not yet enjoy'd: so tedious is this day
As is the night before some festival..."


And now... a DESK SHOT!



Putting together Christmas cards. Funky, simple cards made of elephant poop paper, Grandma's old buttons and some random scraps of fabric. We'll see how it goes... based on the updates. :)

But this shot also shows a new sketch I started of my next female/goddess character. Again... updates... as we go, eh?

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Things To Gawk

Just a post of a few of my favorite internetz images so I always know where they are if I need them. :) etsy.com is sooooo relaxing and Pintrest is a time suck.























Sunday, September 30, 2012

Some Sunday Randomness!

So I made cupcakes today. I have also done a liiiiiiiiiittle sketching. See below!

My new favorite way to first cupcakes. I call it the blobulous.

Chai cupcake with a very successful buttercream frosting.

First attempt at fan art for the DayTripper reading.

Anya's Ghost fan art.
That's all folks. Wore myself out today. Need to zone out for a bit before the new work week starts.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

A Warm Up Sketch... for bed.

For this session of the comic book club we read Blacksad: A Silent Hell.



The art was stunning as usual but somehow I felt the story lacked something that the stories before it had. There seemed to be less mystery, a less convincing and cohesive story. But still it was a joy to read just because there is nothing out there like it, at least not that I know of just yet. The whole time and feel of the noir in a comic is unique for me but I have discovered that it is really enjoyable if well told, well drawn and there is enough emotion that gets across.



Seeing as how I bought and finished the book on the Friday before the comic book club meeting I did not exactly leave myself too much time to really draw a piece of fan art deserving of comparison to Juano Guarnido's art. Instead, at midnight on Sunday just as I was going to bed (actually I was IN bed) I drew something I'd rather call a warm up sketch since I feel like I have not been drawing much and the need is upon me. I wanted to draw something based on the most striking panel of the book (IMHO) which occurs on the first page. It is of an unknown character in a huge and intimidating ram's skull with a swirling red cape all about "him". Then I felt it was really empty and not as powerful looking as I had originally thought and wanted to add something the the dead space around the character. Sadly, I did not have the energy nor was I warmed up enough to do a background. Instead I lazily threw in some head-shots of the main characters. It felt good to draw, but I was a bit disappointed waking up to the result. Oh well, something is done, something is drawn and one must just keep going. Here's to hoping for more art this week!


Sunday, August 19, 2012

That Was Some Fun!

What a busy weekend! Saturday had me volunteering in Fairyland where I hadn't been since I was knee high. Lots of old childhood memories surfaced. Wish my mom could've been there, it would've been fitting. :) After that I hit up the San Francisco Street Food Festival with my good friend Sherry and her BF, Michael. Once there I promptly lost her and then my phone was a dear heart and died. >_< Oh well, we had fun, we had great food and got lots of sun while navigating the masses. After that I got to enjoy the talents of Miss Emily at Gold Star Bar.




It was also super busy that night but we eventually headed to Mission Comics to catch the last bits of Sina Graces signing.




Sadly I did not bring my books for him to sign but we took lots of fun photos and even got delicious Mexican food after. Also, just in case you were wondering, most of the Image Ladies have LOVELY singing voices and we are apparently planning a Disney-themed karaoke night at some point. :D




Image Crew!

As per usual - with the Image crew around - shenanigans ensued!




Sunday was less exciting - or at least less full, but I did get a small walk in, some bills paid and even bought clothes, which while that may not be exciting for you it is a big thing for me. I never buy clothes mostly due to the fact that I do not like to shop, I have no fashion sense and many times I lack the money or will to spend money on such things. Ok, I'm boring you, I understand. :) I also went bowling with the incredible Todd and lovely Janet. Ok, good night!

Monday, August 6, 2012

Post Stockton Con!


Sunday was a resounding success at Stockton Con! I was honestly not expecting to get much out of it or have to put much into it and I almost didn't go because this weekend was full of stuff, late nights, friends, family, organizing things, getting work done, etc. But I am SO glad I went and did all I could and I look forward to the next one. Mike Millerick (see a brief news interview of Mike and coverage of the convention here) put on a comic convention to raise funds for United Way, and apparently Stockton was where a con was really needed!

All the people I met were so friendly, outgoing, interested, looking for their own avenues of creativity and in general just soaking up the all fun that comes from a con. I met some very talented youngsters, one 13 year-old put me to shame with her sequential art. She showed great promise in her characters, line work, draping, motion, emotion and even colors. I met another guy who had gone to school for art and gaming and was in the process of making his own game in order to learn the process and perhaps break into the industry that way. The BEST way to do it, if I may say so myself! He even made a surprise gift of a drawing he did, right there at on the con floor, of me drawing! Thanks Jacob!


We also met with a guy looking to do more smaller, night life type of events to raise money for an organization called ARTicipation. I donated my Mucha print and hope to get in invite to one of these evening draw-fests in the future!


I'd be interested to know how much got raised and what the plans are for next year! I love the fact that I got to be a part of the very first comic convention in Stockton. Now my booth mates and I just need to get our business cards done. ^_^

Friday, July 27, 2012

What to do? Where to go?

Sometimes I don't feel like doing anything. But there is a part of me that insists on doing SOMETHING. So here is how I attacked that today. I got home from work, let the cat outside for a bit (most important) while I read by an open window. Good start, right? Then I made myself sick on M&Ms and some disgusting websites. No, really, they were gross. Not the sexy kind of gross either, you perv. I think I was attempting to shock my system into some sort of consciousness. It worked for a moment until I realized that my stomach was actually queasy and that I should probably stop and find something that was more creative, soul strengthening and conscientiously stimulating. Enter The Minimalists. I started to read and find bits and parts that pertained to me and would help me put some of the thousands of thoughts banging about in my brain in some kind of order. There are still a few thousand thoughts running amok but here are some of the bits that I found worthy of consideration.

The following excerpts are not my own, they come from Joshua Fields Millburn and Ryan Nicodemus of The Minimalists. My thoughts will be italicized - and NOT green - just so we're clear on who's is who's...

The High Price of Pursuing My Dream


"I no longer have the Internet at home. Instead, I now find more productive things to do with my time, focusing on my health and my relationships and the more important things in life. When I need to use the Internet, I go to the library or a coffee shop and I use it deliberately, no longer wasting hours of my life “surfing the web.” Living my dream doesn’t allow time for such pillory."


I aim to do this. No internet at home. Maybe just a month, maybe permanently. Read more HERE.

Letting Go of Shitty Relationships


"Sit down with the person who’s draining the vitality from your life and explain to them what must change in order for your relationship to work. Explain that you need them to be more supportive, that you need them to participate in your growth, that they are important to you, but the relationship in its current state does not make you happy. Explain that you’re not attempting to change them as a person; you simply want to change how your relationship works."



"Starting anew, empty-handed and full-hearted, you can build fresher, stronger, more supportive relationships—important relationships that allow you to have fun and be happy and contribute beyond yourself. These are the meaningful relationships we all need.
It’s also important to do your part. You too must add value to the relationship. Not by buying gifts or commoditizing your love, but by showing up every day and rigorously exhibiting how much you care, demonstrating your love through consistent actions, continually going out of your way to help the other person grow."

I don't think I have many shitty relationships - if any - but I do know that I no longer approach people and life with the warm, open arms that I used to. I am not satisfied with this change. It tells me I am too burdened. I feel people are pulling away from me because I am no longer giving to the relationships I have. But I am going through some sort of shift in my life and it is a shift, a change that I feel needs to happen. But it is taking a lot of my own energy and I have very little left for anyone. I just hope and pray that I can find a way to give again. Read more HERE.

The Benefits of My Minimalist Lifestyle


"...my needs will change in time, and thus what I own will change; but I’ll continue to embrace minimalism as a way of living, because the benefits are astounding (viz., intentional living, personal freedom, deeper awareness, better health, improved relationships, individual growth, and meaningful contribution)."


"I remember the old days when I’d spend an entire weekend organizing junk, separating miscellaneous items into various organizing bins and big blue tubs, using a complex item-dispersal system to separate my junk; but now it’s easy to remain organized since I don’t own much to organize in the first place. Instead, I’ve discovered that it’s much easier to get rid of something than it is to clean or organize it."


"The biggest fringe benefit, however, is the calm I feel when I return home. No longer am I worried about the wall-to-wall disorder. No longer am I bothered by the organized chaos. No longer am I discontent with my surroundings. My simple living space is calm, relaxed, serene."

I have always wanted my home to be a place of respite, calm and comfort. I would also love it if things rarely got messy and only took about 30 minutes to clean! BONUS! Read more HERE.

5 Ways to Create Solitude -


"Our daily lives are filled with noise. Every day it’s getting harder to turn down the volume.


Often, the noise feels inescapable, un-turn-down-able, utterly overwhelming. The only way to avoid it seems to be while we’re sleeping. Or does it invade our dreams too?


Get rid of distractions. This sounds like common sense, but we’re so distracted by the noise that common sense doesn’t seem all that common these days. But you can try to turn off your cellphone for a while; jettison your television; kill the Internet for a month; get rid of a few clocks; check email and social networks only once a day; and find ways to remove subtle distractions from your life."

This is so very prevalent in my life right now. Everything, absolutely EVERYTHING is so loud all the time that I cannot still the choppy waters of my mind and it drives me closer to crazy every day. Just read THIS ENTIRE POST!

Sometimes I don't feel like doing anything. But this...

"You must make change a mustI knew that I wanted to change my life for the longest time. I knew I was unhappy, unsatisfied, and unfulfilled. I knew I didn’t have freedom. Not real freedom. The problem was that I knew these things intellectually but not emotionally. I didn’t have the feeling in my gut that things must change. I knew they should change, but the change wasn’t a must for me, and thus it didn’t happen."


...is what I am dealing with right now. I am working on my "musts" rather than what I just knew in my gut. As well as figuring out what it is that I am here to do on this Earth during this life. I've done a lot of things and I have a lot more to do I'm just not sure if they were or will be the things I want to do. I am not sure if I am passionate about them. Passion is something that I desperately MUST find. I'm trying to remove the blockades that keep me from finding, exploring and living that passion. I MUST act and MUST have courage. I MUST not sit and wait for it anymore.


And now one last link- I know, this post has been a lot of words and not a lot of purty pictures like I normally do but I thank you for bearing with me. This post maybe mostly for myself anyway but you know what, I'm gonna practice the Guide to Not Giving a FUCK.


The following is from Julien Smith on inoveryourhead.net and this is something I am concerned about for myself...

"Ok, I have a confession to make. I have spent almost my whole life- 31 years- caring too much about offending people, worrying if I'm cool enough for them, or asking myself if they are judging me. I can't take it any more. It's stupid, and it's not good for my well being. It has made me a punching bag- a flighty, nervous wuss. But worse than that, it has made me someone who doesn't take a stand for anything. It has made me someone who stood in the middle, far too often, and not where I cared to stand, for fear of alienating others. No more.


All good stuff. Things to not just think about but to DO. I need to stop thinking and DO.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

More Photos from SDCC 2012

All photos were taken by and belong to Branwyn Bigglestone.

Dinner with Man Of Action peeps... in the uni-sex bathroom.

This took 4 tries! But yes, Todd finally snapped.

Man Of Action's Steven Seagle and Image Comics' Branwyn Bigglestone

L to R: Jen deGuzman, I forget her name!, Jacob Semahn, me, Tyler Shainline, Joe Kelly

Biggletron looking regal!

The talented Messers. Chris Giarrusso and Gregg Schigiel

Savage Dragon creator and Image Comics co-owner Erik Larsen

Me, Fiona Meng's fan and Carlos Salazar

Steven Seagle and Jacob Semahn of Man Of Action

Seagle (MOA) and Drew Gill (Image Comics)

Jeremy Haun, artist of Top Cow ( I owe him thanks... or an apology)

Chew creators, Rob Guillory and John Layman

Not sure who all is in this photo or what is going on... but I like it.

Sarah deLaine and Brittany Matter of Image Comics

Todd Martinez and Fiona Meng... and some others. I wasn't there! I don't know!

Gabriel Bautista (in the flannel and the flesh!)

Gabe and Branwyn

Sleepy me and Chris G.

Chris G. and Todd M.

Drew, Jim Demonakos, me, Chris G.

A lot of people... And Monica Garcia!

IT'S MAN LOVE!

MORE MAN LOVE!

Yup... STILL MAN LOVE!

MAN L... no wait, Chris G is in this one. HAHA! You know I love ya, Branwyn. :P

Keven Gardner, Jonathan Chan and an EPIC-SIZED PAINTING!

Sassy men!


Cutest darned heroes EVAH!

Posing heroes

Truck nuts in the uni-sex bathroom. We're down with it all!

Actually Danger Club is REALLY AWESOME
and these guys really are stoked about it.
I just thought they looked so out of character here I had to share.

Betcha can't guess where Mr. Chan is!

Branwyn splitting Daft Punk!

Real White Boy Rap

Possibly the BEST super hero ever.

Yep, this pup is ROCKIN' IT!

Aw, me and Shadowline's Jim Valentino!

Image Comic's Branwyn Bigglestone and Skybound's Sina Grace

Lookit all the fancy Image creators! Sina, Curtis, Tim, Ales, Michael,  Jim and ... Ed?

Talking with Chew creators John Layman and Rob Guillory

Who's paying attention to the panel?
I'm paying attention to the panel.
Just kidding, Jen was tweeting the s**t out of the panel!

Eric Stephenson (Image's publisher) Joe Casey... crap. I give up.
But the woman was fascinating to listen to!
I'll be paying attention to her book for sure.
She writes from anger!