Sunday, December 30, 2012

2013 Horseshit... I mean, Horoscope!

From a Yahoo site:


2013: gemini overview

Gemini
2012 brought you so many relationship lessons, your head may still be spinning as you move into the dark and transformative waters of 2013. Chances are, you have finally decided whether you are in or out (although the inner dialogue and debate is eternal). Now you are being called to go deeper into your experience of commitment and intimacy. Of course, you're known to favor the shallow end, Gemini, but you'll be surprised at how much you crave the depths this year. You are willing to put in the hard work and do whatever it takes to make your life more solid, stable and secure than ever before. Even if this seems to go against your ever changeable nature, you'll find great comfort in consistency over the next few years.
Saturn, the cosmic taskmaster, is taking up long-term residence in your zone of health and work until 2015. The more energy you put into your current projects and daily duties, the greater the reward. You're learning the value of patience, perseverence and hard work. Finding the proper balance between work and health is also a theme that comes into sharp focus. How well are you taking care of yourself? You may find yourself drawn to a more austere, sensible and -- yes -- healthy lifestyle now. Eating to live, instead of living to eat, becomes a viable theme. In order to keep up the energy to support the heaps of projects you've got brewing (as per usual), you'll need to make sure your health and vitality are top notch. Embracing a healthy lifestyle makes everything possible and keeps your life running like a well-oiled machine.
You'll be thrilled to hear that the winds of change are finally dying down as the last two plus years of crazy eclipse patterns in your sign are finished. The dust is finally getting ready to settle and you can begin a potent building phase in your life. Making time for your inner world, spirituality and self-inquiry becomes a necessity rather than a luxury now. Carve out time to sleep, dream, write, draw, journal or whatever it is that your soul needs to thrive during such a busy and productive time. You will need this in order to balance your heavy workload.

Ooooookaaaaay, interesting. What else?

2013: gemini love

Gemini
After enduring a rocky road over the past few years, where you changed your mind about love a thousand times and nearly gave up hope on relationships altogether, you're finally ready to enter a period stability and commitment. The eclipse patterns are no longer turning your relationship realm upside down. You have a better sense of what you want and what you will not put up with in your relationships, which puts you on solid ground. As much as you love a good game, when it comes to love you want nothing short of the real thing. You're exhausted from the back-and-forth, the push-and-pull, cat-and-mouse games. You've grown up considerably since 2012 and are ready for a meaningful and mature relationship.
Other great news to support this maturation process in love is that Saturn has left your romance department for good (well at least for 28 years). After creating considerable difficulty and challenge in your romantic sector since late 2009, you've learned the hard way not to get involved with the wrong people. Your sometimes naive trust in the goodness in others has been replaced with a sober and sharp mind that carefully weighs the pros and cons of getting involved before giving your heart. Saturn taught you how important rules and limits are, even in your romantic life. When you draw a sharp line, your partner will respect you. If they cannot accept your limits, they do not deserve you. This has become crystal clear for you now, Gemini. It's as if a huge rock is being lifted from your romantic life and you're finally clear about whether you want to commit or quit. Of course, this doesn't mean you'll be completely free from any doubts of flip-flopping while committed, this is just part and parcel of your dual nature, Gemini. The difference is that you're willing to roll up your sleeves and put in the hard work to make the relationship successful.

Hmmm...

2013: gemini career

Gemini
You're willing to put in the long hours and tireless effort required to take your career to the next level. You're also loads more focused and disciplined when it comes to daily tasks -- thanks to the cosmic taskmaster (Saturn) giving support to your work zone until 2015. You aren't about to throw in the towel just because things get difficult nor will you look for the nearest distraction as you may've been prone to do in the past. The new you will persist against all obstacles to make your dream a concrete and sustainable reality. Saturn in your work zone is showing you that anything worth having takes hard work, patience and consistent effort. You know the stakes are too high to take the easy way out and throw away all that you've built. Just remember: where there is love, there is no effort. This year's series of life-changing eclipse patterns will rock your work world as the north node hangs out in your work zone for all of 2013. Expect great speed to replace any previous stagnation with your current projects. In fact, you may find your work moving ahead at such a crazy pace that it's hard for your soul to keep up. Be sure to give yourself plenty of time off to catch your breath so your health doesn't suffer. All work and no play can make Gemini one unhappy camper.
Neptune continues to influence your career zone in 2013, bringing great glamour and prestige to your professional persona. You've been blessed to merge the needs of your soul with your career since 2012, and now you're learning to use the power of smoke and mirrors to your advantage in the most powerful way. Your offering to the world is incredibly healing. People are mesmerized with what you have to offer and you can use the power of your imagination to captivate your chosen audience and target market. All of this leads to greater exposure and possibility.

Uh huh... not sure how possible all of that even is but I'll keep my hopes up! I guess it IS time to really buckle down and see what I can get done creatively!

Of course I was born on the cusp so let's take a quick look at Cancer too...



2013: cancer love

Cancer
Your love life is about to get incredibly passionate in 2013, Cancer. You've been preparing for the kind of all-consuming, soul-stirring and dangerously delicious experience of romance for the past two years. At the same time, you're craving greater emotional security than ever. Are these needs mutually exclusive? Not necessarily, but they will require that you only give your heart away to someone you trust, even if the chemistry is off the charts. It's sometimes hard to determine if you're building something to last or burning through a flame that will die as quickly as it started. You've certainly had your fair share of both versions of love over the past few years (perhaps even in the same relationship).
You may be surprised in 2013 how a hot-and-heavy love affair suddenly moves into deep unchartered waters. You'll be asked to put in the work to make it last, but you know it's worth it. This is actually what you want more than anything, despite your fears of getting hurt. Give it a chance if your gut tells you it's the right person. This could be your chance to finally achive the level of intimacy that makes life infinitely magical on a daily basis, despite the inherent struggle.
This is a year to let go of all of the pain and baggage from the past so you can embrace the powerful potential of a fulfilling relationship in the present. This may involve some heavy digging and relinquishing of the old skeletons from the closet, but trust that it's worth the effort. You must free yourself from any residual grievances and resentments from lovers in your past or your heart will never truly be open to someone new (or to your present partner if you're already hitched). Don't let negative nostalgia sabotage your love life, Cancer. That's such an old story for you at this point.

Okay, THAT'S all well and good! How about that career?

2013: cancer career

Cancer
The revolution continues in your career sector. The explosive aspects between Pluto and Uranus that will continue this year allow you to break free of any residual limitations. You crave nothing less than total freedom and autonomy when it comes to running your professional life. You refuse to be told what to do or how to do it. With your innate business sense, you don't need some pesky boss to cramp your style. You made some serious inroads during 2012, and your instinct to break rules is stronger than ever. Follow your gut! It never steers you wrong, Cancer.
Saturn, the cosmic taskmaster, lends tremendous support to your stars this year. You have more staying power than you even realized, and all of the work you've done on your integrity in the past year gives you the backbone you need to stand up to even seemingly insurmountable challenges. You trust your instincts and are not afraid to take risks when it comes to pushing your career to the next level. Your determination to truly get yourself and your brand on the map will pay off in spades this year. You won't give up until you reach the top. The eclipses will increase the flow of social networking that began at the end of 2012. You'll be absolutely blown away by the slew of incredible people coming into your world to help you achieve your goals. Think outside of the box in terms of the groups you might normally affiliate with. There are more branches that you have not considered that could easily be mutually beneficial. Don't be afraid to reach out even if you're not sure. You'll be surprised how willing people are to support your cause this year. There will be no shortage of angels to help you along the way, that's for sure.



I'm not a big believer in horoscopes, but they can be entertaining and inspiring.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Leaving...

My heart hurts.
I'm not sure where the wound started
but it grows as life goes on.
None of this "time heals wounds" crap.
I feel like a disease that people try to move away from.
Yet I cannot move away from my own disease.
I am a fool.
But what else could I have possibly expected by giving my heart away
and then making the choices I made?
Bits of soul
bitter as a rough bottle of wine
are cast unwanted
and painfully down my cheeks.
It's hard to not feel like no one fucking cares.

Seriously, all I want right now is a horse or two...
on a tiny bit of land of my own...
in a place not overly populated.
With a few chickens,
some bees
and a ton
of
fucking
books.

Hello, universe...
this is me.

Monday, December 17, 2012

A Watercolor!

It's in progress but I'm mostly happy with it so far. I'm going slowly so I don't mess anything up TOO much. :)

Rough pencils

In-progress watercoloring

I wanted her to have an unusual eye color. The blue tips to her hair... well... those are just cool. :) Her lips are too harsh and I need a black water color so I can do grey. All in good time...

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Bee Class

So the bee class I took today was super awesome! I realized that there are a few simple things I want from life: bees (and thereby honey), chickens (and thereby fresh eggs) and to bake cupcakes. Yes, of course there is other stuff but that is a good start.


Wednesday, December 5, 2012

It Is The Winter of 2012

It's almost like a Charlie Brown Christmas up in here! Look! I've even got my own version of Snoopy. She inspected the box but didn't help hang the tree. Couldn't find my ornaments so I just put origami cranes all over it. Now what? Oh yeah, Christmas cards.






Sunday, December 2, 2012

A Dreary Sunday

At least I got some volunteering done today. IN THE RAIN! With Miss Sherry-Mae.

Life is in a really weird spot as of late. So many things in progress, halted, up in the air, in chaos... I must draw... and quote Shakespeare... :P

"O, I have bought the mansion of a love,
But not possess'd it, and, though I am sold,
Not yet enjoy'd: so tedious is this day
As is the night before some festival..."


And now... a DESK SHOT!



Putting together Christmas cards. Funky, simple cards made of elephant poop paper, Grandma's old buttons and some random scraps of fabric. We'll see how it goes... based on the updates. :)

But this shot also shows a new sketch I started of my next female/goddess character. Again... updates... as we go, eh?